Broken Doll Baby
And she says that life's a waste
It doesn't have to be that way

Dad threw away her mom
Her mom gave up his name
Crucified by their words
Nailed by shame

She stares into the sun
Self inflicted pain
She sees that they're blind
Why does she take all the blame

The rhyme has changed
compulsion rules
Mary's little lambs are now
raised by wolves
A voyeur with wings flashes a cure
She knows forbidden things
They have a lovely lure

It's alright it's okay
Welcome to this life
Killin' Time
Just watching the grass grow

It's alright it's okay
Welcome to this life
Don't worry sweet baby
Cuz it's over before you know

Persecuted she's not normal
I envy her strange ways
Seven Deadly sins
Seize the hour seize the day

Her ideas need expression
Her wounds never bleed
Her beauty lives in my eyes
Too bad she can't see

She doesn't try I watch her
spirits die
But giving up a ghost would
feel so good
A voyeur with wings flashes a cure
She knows forbidden things
they have a lovely lure

It's alright it's okay
Welcome to this life
Don't worry sweet baby
Cuz it's over before you know

It's alright it's okay
Welcome to this life
Don't worry sweet baby
Cuz it's over before you know

Crumbling Camelot idle teardrops
Cloudy Diamonds freebase funhouse
Expecting to fly but she's just
standing still
Every time she gives it up
she just can't close a deal

So she gives herself another way out
Walks her dog for the 50th time and
Files her nails till they bleed
and she cries now
She doesn't have to try

It's alright it's okay
Welcome to this life
Don't worry sweet baby
Cuz it's over before you know
Chapter One

        The young girl walked slowly up to the door of the penthouse. She
was about sixteen,  beautiful, with long dark hair and flashing green eyes.
She stopped in front of the door looking around her cautiously. There was
an air of sadness around her, but there was also one of hostility. She had
an anger that ran deep inside her. Usually she kept it hidden from the
world, but on this day it was shining from her eyes and evident in the
frown on her face. She stood in front of the door and let out a deep sigh
before knocking on the door. She listened and heard the faint, "Just a
moment," from inside. A moment later the door swung open to reveal a
handsome blond man with a winning smile. "Hey Jaxxy," the girl said glaring
at him. "Did you miss me?"

        "Lissa?" Jax said, surprise evident in his voice, and a shocked
look on his face. "What are you doing here? Why aren't you at school?"

        "They kicked me out," Melissa said entering the apartment. "That's
what they do when you can't pay the bills anymore." She turned and faced
Jax as he shut the door.. "Tell me bro, when was someone going to tell me
that the family lost everything? Why did I have to hear it on the news,
just like everybody else. Why didn't anyone come and get me?"

        "Mom told me that she had sent someone for you Lissa, or I swear I
would have come myself!"

        "And you believed her? You know that they couldn't care less about
me, Jax. They're perfectly happy pretending that I don't exist. One mistake
Jax, and I'm no longer their daughter. I thought that I could count on you
and Jerry though. Why didn't either of you care enough to come and get me?"

        "Lissa, I believed Mom. I'm sorry, but I *can* assure you that that
will never happen again."

        Melissa saw the pain in his eyes and couldn't help but forgive him.
He'd been through a lot. She always found it hard to stay mad at either of
her brothers, but Jax especially. He was the only one that she felt truly
loved her. She would forgive him anything. "You're really mad at them, huh?"

        "They are no longer my family, Lis. They lied to me all my life."
Sadness surrounded Jax like an aura. "I can never trust them again."

        "Jerry too?" Jax nodded. "Jax, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that you
lost everything because of Dad and Jerry. I really am."

        "I know Lissa," Jax said. "So, how long are you staying?"

        "As long as you'll let me. Say, where's that fiancee of yours?" she
said as she dropped her bags and looked around the apartment. She didn't
notice the look of pain that crossed Jax's face. "Last I heard you were
getting married to that model again. Brenda...that was her name, right?
Jax?...Jax?" she said turning to face him. The instant that she saw the
look of pain on his face she rushed over to him. "Jax, what's wrong? What
did I say?"

        "Lissa, Brenda, well she died in a car accident a few days before
we were arrested. Guess you didn't hear that part, huh?"

        "Oh, Jax, I'm so sorry. I know how much you loved her!" She gave
him a fierce hug. "How are you doing, really? Geez, they couldn't have
picked a worse time to get caught, could they?"

        "No, they couldn't of. I'm glad you're here Lis." He looked fondly
at his little sister. He could tell how much she loved him and how much it
hurt her to see him in pain. Knowing that made him angry at his mother all
over again. "I can't believe that Mom didn't send for you!"

        "Come on Jax, Mom hates me!"

        "Melissa..." Jax started.

        "No! We both know it. I'm amazed that she ever agreed to raise me!
The reminder of the hated younger woman, that's all I ever was or will be
to her. She hates me." Melissa broke down into sobs, the deepness of her
pain and loneliness a pain in and of itself for Jax. Yes, his mother *had*
always hated her, ever since she was left on their doorstep when she was
two, the note driving a wedge between their parents that had lasted for
years. It was gone now, but mainly because his mother had managed to
convince his father to send Melissa to boarding school after... the
incident. If it wasn't for that, there was no telling where his parents
would be. Jax put his arms around his little sister and cursed his parents
for cutting her loose over one tiny mistake, and himself for not bringing
her to live with him long ago. He should have realized that she needed him.

        "Lis, I'm sorry that I didn't bring you to Port Charles the minute
that Mom decided to send you to boarding school."

        "It's okay, Jax. I know that I'm a bother." Melissa said, sniffling.

        "No, Lis, it isn't that. I just didn't think. I was too involved in
me, to realize how much you would hate boarding school. You deserve more
then to be sent away to some school that you hate. It was as much my fault
as theirs. You can stay with me as long as you want to. Port Charles High
awaits!"

        "Really?" Lis said hopefully. "Thanks so much Jax!"

        "No problem!" Jax said. He couldn't understand how anyone could
hate this girl. He had loved her from the moment that he had first seen
her. There was nothing that could make his mother see beyond her parentage
though. Lissa had suffered all her life for the sins of her mother and
father.

        "What about money, Jax?" Melissa asked. "Do you have any at all left?

        "Not to worry, I have a plan to win back some of the money and get
a new fortune started. You just wait and see!"

        "Do you want to tell me what this plan is?" Melissa asked, curious.

        "I will later. First, tell me what's new with you, halfpint."

        "Jax, I outgrew that nickname years ago!"

        "No you didn't, well maybe you did, but I can't help it!" Jax sat
down on the couch and patted the cushion next to him.

        Melissa smiled for the first time since she had arrived in Port
Charles. She sat down on the couch next to her brother and told him about
what had been happening with her since they had last seen each other. When
she was finished, she studied Jax, and said quietly, "Uh, Jax, will you
hate me if I go see Jerry?"

        "Of course not. He's your brother!" Jax said, surprised at the
question.

        "He's your brother too," Melissa said sadly.

        "Not anymore." Jax said, the coldness in his voice directed at
Jerry, not Melissa.

        Lissa nodded understandingly. "I know Jax."

        "I swear that you're the only one in the world that understands why
I'm cutting myself off from them. I'm really glad you're here, Lissa!"

        "Me too," Lissa said smiling at her brother.

        Jax gave her directions on where she'd be able to find Jerry. She
left the apartment building and headed down the street. This time she took
a moment to really study Port Charles. This would be her new home for who
knows how long. She was almost to the Brownstone where Jerry had been
staying when she found herself knocked to the ground as she rounded a
corner. "Hey, why don't you watch where your going!" She said angrily. "I
could have been..." She looked up into the beautiful blue eyes of the young
man that had knocked her down. He was reaching down to her, concerned.

        "I'm so sorry," he said, contritely. "I should have been more
careful. I was just in a really big hurry." He helped her to her feet.

        "Where's the fire?" She said sarcastically. He looked at her,
puzzled by her tone.

        "Um, I'm late for work. Sorry."

        Melissa sighed. She realized that she was being rude, but she had
trouble controlling her reactions to things. "I'm sorry that I was so rude.
I've just been have a really bad...life. I hope you don't hold it against
me."

        "No problem," he said, with a bone-melting grin. "I've had those
kinds of days myself. Are you from around here? I've never seen you before."

        "Just moved here. My brothers have been here for a while though,
well one for longer than the other. My name is Melissa. Melissa Jacks."

        "Oh," the boy said. "So your brother's must be Jax and Jerry. Which
one are you staying with."

        "Jax," Melissa said. "But I'm on my way to see Jerry now."

        "Oh, well, I really gotta go, cause I'm really late." He started
off in the opposite direction from where she was going.

        "Okay," Melissa said, then remembering that he hadn't told her who
he was. "Hey, what's your name?"

        "Lucky Spencer," Lucky said, flashing another of his bone melting
grins. "Maybe I'll see you around." He ran off in the direction of the bike
shop. He had ended up losing track of time talking to Lizzie and was really
late for work. That seemed to happen a lot lately. Not that he minded.
Lizzie was the best thing that had ever happened to him, and he'd rather be
with her, than with anyone in the world.

        "You can count on it," Melissa said quietly to herself. This town
was beginning to have definite possibilities. 'Lucky Spencer.' She closed
her eyes and pictured his gorgeous eyes, and that smile. 'Definite
possibilities! I wonder what the chances of him not having a girlfriend
are?' She continued on her way to Jerry's. 'Not that it really matter's!'
she thought with a small laugh. Girlfriends had never stopped her before.

Chapter Two

        Melissa walked nervously up to the door of the Brownstone. She
wasn't sure how Jerry was going to react to seeing her and she wasn't sure
how she was going to react to him. Jerry loved her, but it was in a more
cautious way, like he saw something horrible in her, but couldn't help but
love her anyway because she was so much like him. Both would protect Jax at
all costs, even from each other. She rang the doorbell and waited for a
minute. The door opened to reveal a curvaceous redhead. Melissa looked at
her appraisingly. Well Jerry certainly knew how to land on his feet. "I was
told that I could find Jerry Jacks here?" she said smoothly.

        "Who is it, Luv?" Jerry said coming up behind Bobbie and peering
out the door. "Lissa!?" he said, shoving Bobbie gently out of the way and
throwing the screen door open to envelope his sister in a bear hug. "What
are you doing here, halfpint?"

        Melissa groaned as the nickname that had plagued her since she was
a toddler crossed Jerry's lips. "Not you too! Why can't either of you give
up on that nickname? I'm sixteen years old, not exactly a halfpint anymore."

        Jerry released her and looked her over carefully, "I guess you're
right, Luv. No more halfpint from this guy." He lead her inside, closing
the door behind her, and studied her as she stood before him. He noticed by
her stance and her expression that something besides the nickname was
bothering her. "So, why else is old Jerry in the doghouse?"

        Lissa looked pointedly at Bobbie, who was watching the scene with a
puzzled expression on her face. "Oh, sorry half, uh, Lissa. Bobbie, this is
my sister, Melissa, and Melissa, this is Bobbie Spencer. I'm renting the
upstairs apartment from her."

        Melissa nodded, "Nice to meet you Bobbie. Wait, Spencer! Any
relation to Lucky Spencer?"

        "Yes, he's my nephew. You've met him?"

        "Just a minute ago. I rounded a corner and he ran right into me,
apologized profusely, helped me up, and then ran off to work. I guess he
was late or something," Melissa said with a smile.

        Bobbie laughed. "That certainly sounds like Lucky. He seems to lose
track of time so easily these days." She studied the girl in front of her.
She actually seemed quite taken with Lucky despite the fact that he had
knocked her down. She seemed nice enough but Bobbie had a strange feeling
about her, like she was someone that needed to be watched closely. "It's
funny, Jerry never mentioned having a sister."

        "Well, I'm kind of the family secret," Melissa said bitterly, the
smile gone from her face. "Isn't that right, Jer?"

        "Bobbie, could you give us a few minutes?" Jerry asked softly,
suddenly realizing that something was seriously bothering Melissa.

        "Sure," Bobbie said. "I'll be outside with Lucus."

        Jerry nodded. After she had left he turned back to his sister.
"What's up, Lissa? Why are you here, instead of in school?"

        "Oh, well, you know, when people can no longer pay the bills, those
exclusive boarding schools that treat you like royalty when you have money,
take seconds to kick you out when it's gone." It was almost like a totally
different girl was standing in front of him now. Everything from her tone,
to her body language had changed the minute Bobbie left the room. Now she
was a ball of angry energy. She couldn't stand still and began to pace up
and down the floor. "It was nice though, to learn about the downfall of the
family on the TV at the same time as all of my friends, or should I say
*former* friends. Not one of them cared about me enough as a person to give
me the time of day once the money was gone." She stopped pacing and glared
at Jerry, tears shining in her eyes. "Why didn't you come and get me Jerry?"

        "Mom said that she had sent someone to get you and that you'd be
going to school in Alaska." Jerry said defensively.

        Melissa let out a bitter laugh. "That works for Jax, Jerry, not
you. You know Mom. You know everything that she's capable of. Jax doesn't.
We've all hidden that from him. We hide all the horrible sick things about
this family from him. He trusted her, which is understandable. You
shouldn't have. I know you were in jail, but you could have told Jax to
make sure that someone came to get me!"

        Damn, she was mad. He had to diffuse this situation before it got
out of hand. An angry Melissa wasn't nice, or safe, to be around. "You're
right, Lissa. I should have. I didn't realize just how well Mom could lie
to me, that's all. It won't happen again."

        He could see her noticeably calm down. "I know it's not really
you're fault, but it hurt so much to be without money, so far from home,
without anyone coming to get me. I had to earn enough money for a plane
ticket before I could even come." Tears began to fall from her eyes.

        "Oh Lissa, I'm so sorry." Jerry said, giving her a hug. She leaned
against him and cried into his chest.

        "Why does she hate me so much, Jerry?" Melissa asked plaintively.

        "I don't know Luv. I wish I did."

        Once she was all cried out, she stepped back from Jerry. "Thanks
for letting me cry all over you, Jer."

        "Anytime, Lis." Jerry said with a small laugh. "Are you going to be
staying with Jax?"

        Melissa nodded, with a genuinely happy smile. "Yeah, he said that I
could stay as long as I liked. I'm going to go to Port Charles High." She
was practically beaming! "A real high school, Jerry, with kids that are
people, not cardboard cutouts."

        Jerry smiled at the look on her face. For the first time in years
she looked her age. The weight of all the horrible things that had already
happened in her young life had made her old before her time. He sometimes
forgot that she was still a teenager. "That's great, halfpint!" She glared
at him. "Sorry. Lissa." A sad look came into his eyes. "Keep an eye on him,
okay?"

        Melissa nodded. "I will," she said softly. He gave her another hug,
and they sat down to talk about all the new things that had happened to
them since they had last seen each other. Jerry got a very different
version than Jax had. She had glossed everything over for him. That's what
the family did. Jax only saw the finished product. It was like an unwritten
family rule. Jerry heard a less edited version, but neither of them heard
about the worst things. Those she kept locked up deep inside her where no
one could reach. Those things she would never tell.

        When they had caught up, Melissa stood to go. Jerry walked her to
the door, and gave her a hug as she left. Melissa headed back to the
Penthouse. On her way she passed a little diner and was pleasantly
surprised to see Lucky Spencer sitting outside. 'Suddenly, I'm a little
hungry,' she said to herself. She walked into the courtyard of the diner
and walked directly over to Lucky's table and sat down. She didn't noticed
the beautiful, brunette waitress start in surprise at her move. Elizabeth
watched as one of the most beautiful girls she had ever seen walked over to
Lucky and sat down with him like it was the most natural thing in the
world. She tried not to let it bother her, but found that she was
unsuccessful. Who was she?

        Lucky looked up in surprise as Melissa sat down across from me.
"Fancy meeting you here," she said with a smile.

        "Oh, hey," Lucky said. "Melissa right?" Melissa nodded. "Look, I
want to say again that I'm really sorry that I knocked you down. If there's
anything I can do to make it up to you..."

        "Buy me an order of fries and a shake, and we'll call it even,"
Melissa said with a flirtatious smile.

        'Uh oh,' Lucky thought to himself. "Sure, no problem." He looked
around and noticed Elizabeth, who was still looking over at them. "Hey,
Elizabeth, come here for a minute." Elizabeth came over and smiled at Lucky.

        "What's up?" she said.

        Melissa noticed the looks and sparks that were flying between Lucky
and Elizabeth. 'Damn,' she thought to herself, her eyes narrowing ever so
slightly. A minor glitch, but nothing that she couldn't handle.

        "Elizabeth, this is Melissa Jacks." Melissa gave Liz a bright
smile. "Melissa, this is my girlfriend, Elizabeth Webber. Melissa just
moved in with one of her brothers."

        "Nice to meet you," Elizabeth said.

        "You too," Melissa said.

        "Well, you see Elizabeth, I kind of owe Melissa an order of french
fries, and a shake." He looked questioningly at Melissa.

        "Chocolate," she provided helpfully, with a smile.

        "And a chocolate shake. Think you could swing that?"

        "No problem," Elizabeth said, smiling fondly at him.

        "Oh, and could you ask Aunt Ruby to just put it on my tab?" he
asked with his characteristic grin.

        "No problem," Elizabeth said with a grin. "You know, if she ever
makes you pay that thing off, you'll owe her your first born." He laughed
and Elizabeth headed into Kelly's to get their order.

        Elizabeth hadn't even asked what Lucky owed Melissa the shake and
fries for. Melissa took that as a bad sign. It showed a level of trust that
would make it even more difficult for her. She didn't care though. That
just made the game all the more interesting.

        "I just met you're Aunt Bobbie, and now it seems that your Aunt
Ruby owns this place. How many more of your relatives am I going to run
into today? Oh, and I mean that figuratively, please. Not literally."

        Lucky laughed. "There are more of us around. I don't know when
you'll see them though. I promise that I'm probably the only one that will
run you down. The rest of my family tends to look where they're going quite
carefully."

        There was a deeper meaning to that statement that was readily
evident, but Melissa wasn't sure what it could be, so she just said, "Well
thank god for that! I don't think I could handle being thrown to the ground
again today."

        Lucky became serious again. "You're okay right? I'm really sorry
about that!"

        "I'm fine, thanks!" Melissa said, smiling at him. He was really
sweet, not at all like the guys that she always ended up with. "And it's
really nice to meet someone that actually worries about something so small
as knocking a stranger down. Most of the guys I know would have looked down
their noses at me and said something like, "It isn't proper for a lady to
sit on the ground," completely ignoring the fact that they were the one
that knocked me down."

        "There are actually people like that out there?" Lucky said.

        "At my school there were," Melissa said with a frown. "See, my
parents sent me off to this really expensive all girls boarding school, so
that they could get rid of me, and all the people in and around the school
were like that. I hated them. What few friends I had, dropped me the minute
word got out that my family had lost everything. Do you know that I heard
about it on the TV just like everyone else there? My parents didn't even
bother to send someone to get me. I had to earn enough money for a plane
ticket before I could even leave, after they kicked me out of that damn
school, like I really wanted to be there in the first place.  So that's my
life," she said with a sarcastic laugh.

        Lucky was about to say something when Elizabeth came back and
placed the fries and the shake in front of Melissa. Melissa looked at them
and found that her appetite had disappeared. Not only that, she was
beginning to feel a little fenced in, just like she always did when she
said more then she intended. "You know what?" she said to Lucky and
Elizabeth, getting to her feet. "I just remembered that I have to get back
to Jax's. I totally forgot that I told him I'd be back an hour ago. He's
bound to worry, this being a new town to me and all. I'll see you later."
She started to leave.

        "Bye," Lucky and Elizabeth said.

        "Wait, what about the fries?" Lucky asked.

        "You eat them," Melissa said, turning and smiling at him. "Oh, and
we're still even." She turned again and hurried away from Kelly's.

        Lucky and Elizabeth watched her go, a little puzzled. "What was
that all about?" Elizabeth asked, sitting down.

        "I don't know," Lucky said. "She seems a little strange to me."

        "How do you know her?" Elizabeth asked, trying to sound casual
about it.

        "I just met her today," Lucky said. "I was late for work so I was
sprinting. I rounded the corner and wham, knocked her flat. She was cool
about it, well after a minute anyway. She said that we could call it even
if I bought her a shake and fries. Why?"

        "I don't know," Elizabeth said, getting to her feet. "It was just
the way that she  focused in on you. She walked over and sat down like you
had known each other forever or something."

        "Hey, are you jealous?" Lucky asked playfully.

        "No!" Elizabeth said quickly, turning to hide her slightly worried
expression.

        "Elizabeth," Lucky said seriously, grabbing ahold of her hands so
that she had to turn and look at him. "It's not like you have anything to
worry about," he said pulling her down onto his lap sideways. He wrapped
his arms around her and laid his head on her shoulder. "You're the best
thing that ever happened to me, remember? I love you, so no worries, okay?"

        Elizabeth wrapped her arms around his neck and smiled at him.
"Okay, no worries." Her face got serious. "I know all of those things,
Lucky, really. It's just sometimes..."

        Lucky nodded understandingly, and reached up to brush a strand of
hair off her face. "Just let me know when something's bothering you
Elizabeth. You can tell me anything in the world, it won't matter. We'll
work through it together, okay?" Elizabeth nodded and smiled at him. He
looked at her. She was so beautiful. Their faces moved closer together.
Lucky ran his hands along her shoulders until they came to a stop behind
her neck and her pulled her head forward to meet his. The kiss was sweet at
first, but it quickly deepened. They melted together, forgetting where they
were until the sound of someone clearing their throat reached them. They
looked up to find Ruby standing over them. "Good afternoon, Lucky. Is there
any way that I could get my waitress back now?"

        Elizabeth jumped to her feet, but Lucky just grinned at his aunt.
"Not quite yet, Aunt Ruby," he said pulling Elizabeth back onto his lap. "I
think that you can handle things for a few more minutes." Elizabeth giggled
and tried to get up again, but Lucky held onto her tightly.

        Ruby laughed. "You're definitely a Spencer, Lucky!" She said
shaking her head at him. "She only has a half hour left anyway and we're
not very busy." She looked at Elizabeth. "You can punch out early if you
want."

        "Really?" Elizabeth asked. Ruby nodded. "Thank you!" Ruby went back
into Kelly's. She shook her head at herself. She was getting soft in her
old age.

        Elizabeth tried again to get to her feet, but Lucky held her firmly
in place. "Come on Lucky!" she said, looking at him sternly. "You have to
let me up so that I can punch out and we can leave!"

        "But I like you right where you are," Lucky said with a pout.

        "Lucky!" Elizabeth said, exasperated. Lucky just shook his head.
She leaned close and whispered something in his ear. "But only if you let
me go right now."

        Lucky looked at her appraisingly. "Okay," he said giving her a
quick kiss and letting her get to her feet. Elizabeth smiled at him and
then hurried into Kelly's, Lucky's eyes following her every move.  She
punched out and then met him back outside and they headed back to her
place. Neither one of them noticed the pair of eyes that had been watching
them the entire time.

        Melissa watched as Lucky and Elizabeth left Kelly's. She had a
thoughtful look on her as she observed how they acted together. After they
had gone she walked slowly back to the penthouse. She had a feeling that
stealing Lucky away from Elizabeth was going to be her biggest challenge
yet. Not the she minded. If there wasn't a challenge, what was the point?
It was only too bad that guys became infinitely less interesting once she
finally got them away from their girlfriends. One thing was for sure
though, she was determined to make Port Charles High a whole lot more
interesting!

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